I feel like everyone has a path they;re trying to either set for me or help me set. I don’t want to regret not going to China, but I’d really like to be back in the states soon. I love traveling, but I think I just needed to get out of Texas. But if I don’t find a reason to make me not regret going to China, I’ll go there. If I do, I’ll be in the states when I’m done here. Does that make sense?
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Quote of the week: As I was sitting in the boy’s closet reorganizing and cleaning, Gussy walks in (wearing one of Alicia’s mini dresses, ha ha) and says, “Sara, I love you.” He then gives me a hug and walks back out. All I could do was smile and say, “I love you too, Gussy.” Awe!!
Cleaned all day yesterday, then went to Alicia’s family Christmas party. Kinda boring with some really weird tasting pina coladas. The only thing that made it taste better was adding frozen coke to it, lol.
Finally got the boys to bed last night at 10 minutes to midnight. We pulled the out presents and got them stacked and ready. The older boys, Casey and Ashley, actually separated their presents from everyone else’s last night so they could get to them quickly. Well, since they already treat me like an older sister, I decided to be the mean/sneaky older sister and put them back in the pile. I mixed them ALL up when I pulled out the hidden presents from my closet, ha ha.
I actually went to sleep around sleep around 2am, but for some reason I was woken up promptly at 7am. I actually needed a HUGE coffee just to focus. Ewan was upset at ‘Santa’ for giving him a blue helmet for his new bike instead of a Lightning McQueen helmet… we have him on camera crying. So sad and yet so funny. Gus was soooo happy to get his. He didn’t care that it wasn’t the right helmet. The ones they got are actually the right size and safer. ‘Santa’ was very generous this year. The older boys just got candy stockings since they’re too old for Santa.
Ewey wasn’t happy with his pillow pet at first, but he’s now carrying around his monkey to sleep on. Gus was extremely happy with his dog. He usually carries around these blankets with little animals on them, but he hasn’t touched them all day. He’s instead carrying the dog everywhere. I think I’ve officially replaced the blanket!! Yay!!
The whole family (Alicia’s side) showed up around 10, opened presents by 11:15am and most ppl were gone by 12:30pm, ha ha. Her mother, nephew and his girlfriend left around 3:30pm. By that time, I was stuffed, bored and ready to sleep. I got to skype with my parents. Mom got a NOOK tablet from my dad, they got a Walmart card from my bro and he got a laptop from them. He got 2 of my presents so far, but there are 2 more still on the way. He actually loved them. Hope he likes the other 2. And now it’s 5:21pm, all 3 of us are exhausted and the twins are still in nut-so mode!! HOW?! We need rest!!
We’re going to Noosa tomorrow and spending 2 days on the Sunshine Coast. Plenty of time to swim, relax and explore 🙂
P.S. to my last post… I love Trisha Yearwood 🙂
Hey everyone, sorry it’s been a lil bit since I last posted, but if you know me, you know I’m a big planner/list maker. I like to have at least a 6 month – 1 year plan at the minimum, and even then I get stressed. Everyone says I worry too much I have a big decision to make already. I still have until the end of October left on my visa, but I’m planning what to do next so I can save appropriately. I’m going to Sydney with my friend Sarah for Australia day. We’re going to spend a few days there during the celebration and festivals. 2012 Chinese Year of the Dragon (New Year), and then there’s the Sydney Festival and the Sydney Food Festival 🙂
The decision I have to make is between either taking a TESOL course and teaching in China for year, or moving to NY/Toronto to be near my best friend while he’s stationed there for the next year. I love the idea of moving to China and teaching. The money would be great and I’d be in Asia and the 4th continent I would have lived on.
Here is the link for the TESOL opportunity: http://www.teach-overseas.com.au/weekend-locations/tesol-brisbane/
On the other hand, this is my BEST FRIEND I’m talking about. Skype can only do so much. I miss him and haven’t been able to hang out just the two of us for years. One of us is always on the other side of the world and in different time zones. I’m willing to give up the rest of my time here and join him in North America by living in NY or Toronto, but I think I would need either an amazing opportunity or something that makes my move worth my giving up the rest of my time here. I can’t leave until after April anyway.
If I move to NY, most likely Syracuse, I can be within an hour of him and enroll in Syracuse Un to finish my writing degree; or Toronto U which is 5 hours away and finish my degree there. The only thing is, I think he’ll only be there until May 2013 and there’s a possibility he might be deployed at any time. If he reenlists at that point, he could reclass and be moved again. Would my move be worthless at that point? I could be near him every weekend and maybe even buy a car to drive to the base.
So now I have a HUGE decision to make. My heart is torn at the moment. My heart says one thing and my mind says another. I don’t wanna be torn. It’s a little cheesey, but it works:
[Lyrics:]
Maybe it’s the things I say,
Maybe I should think before I speak
But I thought that I knew enough
To know myself and do what’s right for me
And these walls I’m building now
You used to bring them down
The tears I’m crying out
You used to wipe away
[Chrous:]
I thought you said it was easy,
listening to your heart
I thought you said I’d be ok
So why am I breaking apart?
Don’t wanna be torn [x4]
Don’t make me have to choose between
what I want and what you think I need
Cause I’ll always be your little girl
But even little girls still got to dream
Now it all feels like a fight
You were always on my side
But lonley I’ve been now
You used to make it go away
[Chrous:]
I thought you said it was easy,
listening to your heart
I thought you said I’d be ok
So why am I breaking apart?
Don’t wanna be torn
Why is all this so confusing, complicating and consuming
Why did all this made me angry
I wanna go back to being happy
These tears I’m crying out
You used to wipe away
[Chrous:]
I thought you said it was easy,
listening to your heart
I thought you said I’d be ok
So why am I breaking apart?
Don’t wanna be torn
Yes, what you just read is a Miley Cyrus song, lol. One of the few I really like, but it works in a way. Any advice is appreciated, or if you just want to say something about you’re experiences of youth… message me on facebook, twitter or comment on here.
**Title is the name of a Levi Weaver Album.. it’s one of my favorites: http://leviweaver.com/music/
I want to thanks everyone who sent me a ‘happy birthday’ in my email or facebook. I love you all and thanks for remembering… or being reminded, ha ha. I’m still wondering where 18 went and how 23 got here so fast. Of course I had to work today, but I was off by 3:30pm. Alex came home early and Alicia took me out for some fun. We went bowling (turns out we both suck after a couple of games, lol), and finished most of our Christmas shopping. I got the boy’s Christmas shopping done as well. We went to Montezuma’s, a mexican food restaurant. It’s actually semi-decent mexican food 🙂 Even had a ‘Santa Surprise’… which turned out to be pretty good… also figured out how to get a brain freeze in less than 2 seconds. Ice cream at Baskin Robbins to top off the night.
Today is the 2nd coldest December day in Brisbane history. It is sooooo cold. Well, 64F and rainy, but it’s also really windy, lol.
http://www.weather.com/weather/today/Brisbane+Australia+ASXX0016
Netball again tonight. Horribly addicting game, ha ha. Gotta check out my earlier posts for more info. Tomorrow is my birthday, working half day, then bowling with Alicia and maybe going out with the girls this weekend. I’m still wondering where 18 went and how 23 got here so fast. Before I know it, 30 will be here ;/ Oh that reminds me, Chris and I made a funny pact yesterday. If neither of us are married by 30, we’ll let our parents choose our future partners… now that’s a scary thought, ha ha.
Sorry, I haven’t updated in a bit. Been pretty boring the last little bit.
Wow, about 3 times as many people showed up for our Christmas party than we expected. It was also kind of a housewarming party too. Met another au pair and tons of photographers. There were about 20 kids there too. Too bad we couldn’t get any games going, but I think that would be easier with less people. The kids had a slip-n-slide and movies. The boys still ended up naked, just like most of the other kids. There ended up being 4 sets of twins, including Ewey and Gus, ha ha. So many kids. Alex got pretty drunk, but was so funny. It’s nice having adult conversations for once. None of the single guys showed up, but all of us single girls were able to compare storied and horror stories, ha ha.
Almost done with the 2nd season of Big Bang Theory. Still have 3 more season left. I love the internet. I can now watch Shameless, New Girl and Bones as well.
2 days until my 23rd birthday.. I can’t wait!!
Might go to White Christmas at Movie World this weekend. It’s a lot like Holiday in the Park at 6 Flags.
Not much going on. Stay tuned til next time 🙂